My mind was a jumble of thoughts and I really wasn't listening to the radio, but then I remember the thought, "I'm not wild about this song..." breaking through the mental noise. As soon as that thought came I began to really listen to the words. Just as quickly as I thought, "I'm not wild about this song", the words began to sink into my soul and I had an overwhelming sense of the Lord's preparation of my heart for what was to come. Not wanting to let my emotions get carried away, I tucked the message and sense of preparation away to ponder later.
After getting the diagnosis and the emotional roller coaster that went with that day, I was certain that the song was meant for me in that moment. Now I realize that this statement may seem "out there" to some reading this, but I cannot deny what I know is true. I am so grateful to the Lord for the way He met me in those quiet moments on Monday...
Whatever You're Doing (Something Heavenly) by Sanctus Real
It's time for healing, time to move on,
it's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time to make right what has been wrong;
it's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me, and all I can do is surrender
Whatever You're doing inside of me
it feels like chaos, but somehow there's peace
And it's hard to surrender to what I can't see,
but I'm giving in to something heavenly
Time for a milestone, time to begin again,
re-evaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
or just climbing aimlessly over these hills?
So show me what it is You want from me I give everything - I surrender
Whatever You're doing inside of me
it feels like chaos, but somehow there's peace
And it's hard to surrender to what I can't see,
but I'm giving in to something heavenly
Time to face up, clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
that I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to release all my held back tears
Whatever You're doing inside of me
it feels like chaos, but I believe...
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life, something heavenly
Whatever You're doing inside of me
it feels like chaos, but now I can see
This is something bigger than me
Larger than life
Something heavenly
Something heavenly
1 comment:
I know exactly what you mean. After my scary sonogram that showed cancer so clearly the doctors told me BEFORE the biopsy, my legs were physically shaking out of control. When I got in my car, full of fear, the Rich Mullens song was on and spoke to my heart. "So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf You have been King of my glory Won't You be my Prince of Peace." How bizare to be so literal and yet so appropriate.
May your love of Christian music give you insight and comfort during these next fews months.
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